Friday, January 27, 2012

Happy New Year...once again, damn, can't get this regular blogging down to a pattern!

SOOOOO Much has happened! last update was about my boobs and my pre-op appointment. I had the surgery on 12/8 and they are beautiful. I was worried for a, confused at my decision, because they seemed SO small. But actually they're perfect! I was released from all physical restrictions yesterday, which was 7 weeks since surgery. They didn't look this good in high school hahaha So we're adjusting. Cheryll says she feels like she's cheating on me because it feels like a different woman hahaha My healing has been great with the exception of the stray dissolvable stitch popping through which is so strange. I have very light scarring around the areola and down the center of the breast. The most obvious scar lines are under the breast (the anchor part) and no one sees that anyway. They look really good and best part is I can go braless this summer!!!!




Our puppy Romeo has gone through the wringer. He has a genetic disorder and his patellas (knee caps) luxate, meaning they pop out of position at the slightest movement. We learned this the hard way after two emergency visits to the vet. First was 11/25 and second was about two weeks after my surgery. We met with the recommended orthopedic surgeon who is affiliate with our vet office and decided to use him as Romeo's condition was worsening. The rescue we got him from wanted us to run around and get 2nd, 3rd opinions, from their other vets. I ultimately decided against this because a vet is a vet is a vet and will tell me/confirm the same things we know. We needed to get a specialist to review him and I wasn't comfortable if the regular doctor was going to do the surgery. The rescue kept saying they could find a cheaper alternative (about $1500-2000 less in cost) and that rehab wasn't a big deal, confine the dog for several weeks, etc. That was in exact opposite of what the original specialist told us. Just like humans getting knee or hip replacements, you want to get them moving within 24 hours and keep them moving within restrictions. So we had the first of two surgeries on 1/14, his hind right knee. The ortho and his wife (the rehab specialist) kept him at their home for a week to make sure he was ok and prepared to come home. We also get a life line and consistent weekly updates/visits with them for the life of the dog! Our rehab consists now of two walks a day for 10 minutes each where he must bare weight on the leg and walk normally. He's in a soft cast and looks pitiful hahaha and has to wear the cone of shame because he tries to mess with his cast. So far so good....about another 8 weeks before he gets the second surgery. He needs to be able to move better and our pockets need to recover lol 



We are moving by end of February. We've been renting for the last 4 years in a town home that is walking distance from Jordan's elementary school. Next year she'll be in the middle school which is not walking distance to/from where we live now. And we only signed a 6 month lease extension so it's up on 3/1. This whole experience has been a bitch! My landlord, while we had a great relationship the past few years, is being a neurotic crazy woman lately. It's because I'm finally saying no to the things she wants to do. For instance, she wanted to re-list the house for sale just two weeks after my surgery, have me have the place in "show condition", clean/declutter, and while we're packing insists we put our boxes in the garage and out of the way. ummmm F U!! Bitch didn't I just tell you that I have to recover and have restrictions for the next 7 weeks????   I AM NOT THE OWNER! Also, I was pretty offended that she was told by the realtor (who I was kind enough to let in to look at the place just before and just after my surgery) we have clutter because I am a major OCD neat freak and keep this place IMPECCABLE! What renter/tenant gets the carpets cleaned every 3-6 months? replaces filters in heating/ac system every 3 months? replaces filter in fridge every 6 months? Not to mention the three toilets we fixed on our dime and time, or the hack jobs her step dad does that ultimately cost us all because she wants to save a penny (like the time he botched the electricity in the hallway while we were on vacation and we came home to the garage smelling like a dead body and our full size freezer being destroyed, losing hundreds of dollars as it needed to be thrown away with all the food we lost!!) Things like this is what I do because I believe you should take care of other peoples stuff better than your own. I allowed her to list the house the last time 8 months early and participated in showing the property myself several times. I even let someone come through to see the place after being pressured by her last realtor, on the day my daughter came home from having her eye surgery!!! WTF??? So she's doing things like calling A LOT, emailing A LOT, sending her step-dad over to do minor repairs like fixing up the little backyard we have... unannounced!!! He just shows up and starts plugging away in the backyard! Once it was a Sunday at 2pm...REALLY??? Back in December I pushed back and referred to our lease and told her she couldn't list the house until the earliest 30 days prior to the end of the lease as stated in the lease. This I'm sure is what set her off. I told her how I've been a GREAT tenant and was highly cooperative the last time around but the circumstances and situation now just aren't the same...she needs to back off!


We are looking at a place this Saturday that feels like the one. It's a two bedroom condo with hard wood floors and 1600sqft of living space all on one level...great for Romeo...it's beautiful!!! Fingers crossed that this is it! I just have that gut feeling that it is :-) And then we will move by 2/18 and good riddance of this place!


Tuesday is my last "official" date on payroll with my job. It's been nice...now comes the unemployment filing (yuck) and looking for a job once we move. 


All of these life events have had me pretty low lately. I went to the doctor to talk about it yesterday and she thinks I'm severely depressed and started me on some stuff to help in the meantime of seeing a therapist again. These are ok/good things...I need something to change in me. Most days I don't get out much, I forget/don't want to eat, and just wanna sleep til 11am. I don't have this luxury...I have a family I have to be here for. I've lost 18 lbs since surgery. Feels good but is not healthy. I have been very sad and anxious about all these changes and I've kept it pretty much to myself. Mostly to my friends I'm this bubbly energetic thing all the time. Cheryll gets to see the other side and I want to make sure I'm not so broken for her anymore. So I think this is the responsible thing to do...seek help. 


I couldn't start culinary school when they called this time around...day program and I needed to be here for Romeo. But I'm still on the list and hope a spot in the evening or weekend session opens up :-) I really don't want to lose momentum.


Obviously all these things have put the wedding planning on the back burner. I need to go back to work if we're gonna pull this off. Why does everything cost so damn much?? lol  We had a GREAT idea though....our wedding planner, Heather of O.C.D. Events, posted a blog about doing a milk & cookies dessert at weddings using girl scout cookies. We were going to do this anyway...we don't want the whole traditional cake thing, we are doing a coffee/hot chocolate thing with milk & cookies. SOOOOO in the wake of all the girl scout controversy about their inclusion stance of transgender children stating  "If a child is living as a girl, that's good enough for us. We don't require any proof of gender." and that California GS who was trying to get everyone to boycott cookies this year...we are purchasing anywhere from 50-75 boxes of cookies for our wedding! We will be supporting our little cousin who is a GS by purchasing from her, also supporting a local GS troop, AND making our dent in cookie sales this year in support of their inclusion policy! YAY!

Until next time...

5 comments:

  1. Big, big HUGS girly! BIG HUGS! I know so much of what you are going through personally. As in, I personally am going through the same things. I'm here if you need to vent!

    PS: Bra-less this summer? Right on! I haven't been able to do that since, oh, 4th grade!

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  2. Wow. You do have a lot going on. all i can say is you are fully entitled to feel low/stressed/anxious/sad, etc. it's great that you are acknowledging it and working through it.

    ps. your tits look fab!

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  3. Thank you ladies! I'm feeling better and better everyday :-)

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  4. Glad your op went well :))) I had one 9 years ago and it was the best thing I ever did....
    Xoxo

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  5. Thank you! It has truly changed my life. I'm still healing...but I love going braless in the house :-)

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