Monday, December 6, 2010

When life throws you lemons....

So a few weeks ago I found out that the division I work within at the pharmaceutical conglomerate I've been tied to for the last few years is sort of "phasing out". While we've been cautioned to be "responsible" and not tell others that the company is doing away with us entirely, what do you think it REALLY means when they tell you that "no new science is being funded"?? It means with their focus remaining on the commercials side of the business and of those 2 products (we only have 2 mind you) one product is transitioning to Europe and the other is going off patent in 2 years...with no new science, nothing in the pipeline and no portfolio?? YOU'RE DOING AWAY WITH US!!!! lol Love how these higher ups always try to be PC in their delivery lol

So none the less I am faced with an impending lay-off at work. Most likely by March/April 2011. My emotions are running the gamut again. I'm sad, disillusioned, scared, anxious, relieved (? less work right now), happy to have more time on my hands, etc. Poor Cheryll has had to deal with my emotional highs and lows. Now I'm not one who feels that what I do or how I make my living necessarily defines me but I think what has me the most unnerved is the fact that this is my bread & butter. I don't like to every depend on anyone or be a burden/stress to others. I'm very uncomfortable with the fact that I may have to collect unemployment and bring in less $$ to our household, placing stress on Cheryll.

Never mind the fact that I hate having to sell myself! Can't everyone just tell by standing in my presence how awesome and valuable I am to them???  hahaha

Back to the grind of tailoring my resume and putting my "feelers" out there. Uugghhh can't I just sleep through all of this??

This of course is setting us back in the wedding planning department. Now I know we have time, two years out now, and while we like our "date" it's not set in stone until we contract a venue, so all is still very much fluid, I have to admit that my spirits are dampened :-(  I so very much wish to hurl myself into the throws of wedding planning...or wedding saving lol....ahhhhhh such is life...I'm sure my efforts will pick right up after this job situation is dealt with.

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  1. UGH, my bestie went through that last year. It was so torturous - there was plenty nights of us up talking and drinking so that she could function long enough to get her stuff together to job hunt.

    I am currently looking for a new gig, out of state no less so it is especially hard - I'm with you, I'm awesome why do I have to define my skills on one piece of paper who can realistically do that??

    I hope this doesn't ruin your wedding planning, I know you are looking forward to it and I do believe that sometimes as crappy as these things are - they are really a blessing in disguise.

    Keep us posted. If I knew people in your area, I would put some feelers out for you!

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  2. Thanks Cynthia! I'm really not in that bad of a place. I live in an area we call "Biotech Beach" so I'm sure there will be other opportunities out there for me. I just have to get off my lazy butt and start looking lol I think i'm over the crying/anxiety fits period so whhhoossshhh! (clear my head) I'm giving myself through the holidays to revamp the resume and then hit it hard in 2011!!!

    I'm on the border with the wedding planning stuff right now. We are definitely doing the legal thing in July...it's either here in California or in Boston (waiting on the Prop 8 BS to be over)! Do I wanna go the full shabang on a smaller scale next summer and just have my besties there? have a party afterwards when we get home? or do the courthouse thing next summer AND the big shabang in 2011 as originally planned? decisions, decisions! :-)

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  4. When life throws you lemons, Tami, you will make some darn good lemonade! I know this is easier said than done, however, I have faith that things will work out in the end for you... and for Cheryll. It seems so timely the sequence of events-- Cheryll getting into the police academy AND THEN you finding out about possible layoffs. I have no doubt you are a valuable resource, whether it is continually at Pfizer or at another company, and that is why you are going to be fine in the end. Keep faith and keep heart dear gal!

    And I agree with you-- higher ups are always so full of bs! I think eventually they have what's coming to them!

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